In a letter to fans on her site, Britney Spears, 25, writes about her sons, Sean Preston, 20 months, and Jayden James, 8 months, her stint in rehab, and people’s perceptions of her. Some excerpts:
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons areasleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is sosurreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hitrock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol ordepression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD…I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in alittle shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how muchenergy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gonebecause I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made meso sad. I confess, I was so lost.
When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Nowrecently I find with my children that I want them to have that feelingall of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since Ihave children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was littleare coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and Ihate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason forthis letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently…I am only human people and I love you for still loving me…I just hope this lettermade some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am comingfrom. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that isto be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their ownperception of me and how they think I really am.
Source: Britney Spears
Click the extended post for her letter in its entirety.
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