How Audrina Patridge Got Through Her ‘Scary’ C-Section with the Help of Train’s ‘Soul Sister’

09/15/2016 at 03:15 PM ET

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No one ever said delivering a baby was easy, but Audrina Patridge had some musical accompaniment to make the process a little less stressful.

“I had the doctors turn up the music in the delivery room so I wouldn’t focus on what was happening,” Patridge tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s issue. “I was kind of scared and Corey just kept talking to me.”

The former star of The Hills delivered daughter Kirra Max by Cesarean section on June 24.

Fittingly, it was Train’s “Hey Soul Sister” that was playing when baby Kirra made her entrance.

“I was scared to have a c-section. She was breech. I tried everything to get her to flip. I went to acupuncture, I floated in the pool, I did front flips, I did handstands, I did everything you could imagine and nothing worked. I waited until the very end of my pregnancy” Patridge, 31, admits of the process. “[My fiancé] Corey [Bohan] kept talking to me. And it wasn’t bad at all!”

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And once the former reality star locked eyes on her baby girl, “It was instant,” she says. “It was so natural.”

Now, Patridge — who has a lifestyle blog, AudrinaPatridge.com — is relishing in every moment of life with 11-week-old Kirra.

“Every day I look at her and I can’t believe she’s mine,” she says. “She’s so cute, it melts my heart.”

Always sticking her tongue out 😍#11weeks #kirramax

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“Kirra is the happiest, most beautiful baby with a constant smile and lots of goo-ing and gaa-ing!” Patridge wrote on her blog in August. “She loves giving Corey and [me] the biggest smiles.”

Though the work is worth it, Patridge also got real about the hardships of first-time motherhood in those first few weeks.

“If I’m being completely honest, the first month of no sleep, C-section recovery, unpacking, and getting back into the swing of things was pretty grueling,” she admitted. “But, at the end of the day, all I had to do was take one look at Kirra and none of that mattered anymore.”

For more from Audrina Patridge, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday.

— Aili Nahas

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Jo on

I’ve had two c-sections. While it is scary, I would never want music played at all because I’d want the doctors to be able to talk to each other and hear each other/the machines.

Stella on

And in a strange coincidence, I would rather have a c-section than listen to Train.

JR on

Jo, as an OR nurse, music is played during 90 percent of all surgeries. Quite loudly, after the patient goes to sleep. Fyi.

She wanted Train playing? on

Hahaha Stella…Seriously!!!🚫🚂

thehitchcocks on

First time I’ve read a celebrity “birth story” where I didn’t feel like it was full of bullshit and stupidity. Admitting that the first month is “grueling” and not talking about how “beautiful and perfect” the birth was is actually quite refreshing to read. Nice job People!

please on

i had an emergency c-section under general anesthesia. THAT was scary. i didn’t see or hold or hear my son for about 12 hours. so tired of all these ‘stars’ and their ‘scary’, ‘trying’, ‘exhausting’ pregnancies and deliveries. you are no better or any more of a woman for what you have done by giving birth. my placenta had separated, my BP was sky high, and my child and i nearly died. THAT was scary. stop with all these stories about no ones.

Denise on

‘Please’, I’m sorry your delivery was so scary. But you are no better than anyone else either. Yes, other deliveries may be a lot harder, but to Audrina, her delivery is still the scariest thing she’s ever been through. Why put other women down just because you nearly died? Just be glad not all of the other moms out there have to go through the same horror. I hope both you and your son are healthy and happy.

Denise on

‘Please’, I’m sorry your delivery was so scary. But you are no better than anyone else either. Yes, other deliveries may be a lot harder, but to Audrina, her delivery is still the scariest thing she’s ever been through. Why put other women down just because you nearly died? Just be glad not all of the other moms out there have to go through the same horror. I hope both you and your son are healthy and happy.

Zeph on

Having had an emergency csection to save both our lives I know what scary is. My husband watched through a very small window all alone. That is scary. I’ve also had 3 scheduled csections.. cake in comparison.

Kelly on

All of these sanctimommies need to stop. Everyone has their own unique birth stories. Just because you had an emergency c section and someone else had a planned c section, doesn’t mean the person with the planned section wasn’t scared. Us women need to stop one uping each other and start supporting each other!!!

Brandi on

@Kelly THANK YOU. Every woman’s experience with childbirth is unique to them and regardless whether a delivery is scheduled in advance, unplanned, vaginal, cesarean section, goes well without any complications or has to happen on an urgent or emergency basis…ALL mothers-to-be are completely entitled to be scared during labor and delivery. I really wish women would stop trying to belittle each other’s childbirth experiences and be more compassionate and understanding instead.

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