Jamie Otis Opens Up About Baby She Lost: It’s ‘Crazy When It Happens to You … It Just Sucks’

09/02/2016 at 03:50 PM ET

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It’s been almost two months since Married at First Sight‘s Jamie Otis and Doug Hehner lost their son four months into Otis’ pregnancy.

And now, the reality star and author is opening up about some of the feelings she experienced after the heartbreaking tragedy.

“I felt kind of silly. You can sense that people around you kind of just want you to … keep going, you know?” a teary-eyed Otis, 30, said on a Thursday segment of The Tomorrow Show with Kevin Undergaro. “I remember, [Doug] came home from work and I was just trying to stop the crying, but I couldn’t.

“So he comes up the stairs and he literally just dropped his work bag and everything and came over and let me cry,” she continues. “It was just so comforting.”

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“I was 17 weeks and a day, so I was well into my second trimester. I’m a labor and delivery nurse. That’s another example of my husband [being amazing] because who knows how to [react]?” says Otis, who shared in a July blog post that she and Hehner chose the name Johnathan Edward for their unborn son.

“I would think I would know how to react to that being that I’ve delivered stillborns, but it’s just crazy when it happens to you,” she adds. “It just sucks.”

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Since Otis and Hehner lost their son, she has been candid about sharing their experiences on her blog and Instagram page — including the fact that she and her husband have hope for their family’s future additions.

“Hearing stories of [lost babies] and coping mechanisms has helped me, but what has really helped me is hearing stories of others who have gone on to have their rainbow babies,” she wrote in an August post. “And those who say they got pregnant with their rainbow baby within months of losing their first baby gives me even more hope.

“I don’t know how others handle [losing babies], but for me I have this strange idea that the solution to my problem is to be pregnant again,” she added. “I just feel like there is an emptiness in me that can’t be filled.”

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heidi on

Bless you, Jamie, and your Sweet family Hubby, for opening-up about how shattering it is to lose your Precious Baby Boy…So very sorry for your loss.
Praying that even as God holds Little Johnathan Edward close this very minute, He will also heal both of your hearts, knowing that missing your Son will never go away, and that tears will still fall sometimes. Hoping such a neat couple will be blessed again very soon with a Beautiful Rainbow Baby as the two of you obviously love one another deeply and will be wonderful parents to all your future children:)

Grace on

It will be 13 years this October since I lost my baby boy at 8 months pregnant and like u all I wanted was to get pregnant right away because I felt I was so close and another year would be an eternity, my doctors advised me to wait at least 3 months for my state of mind, they were always concerned that I had the right support, family and husband…I now have a daughter (11) and son (7) but it still breaks my heart…lots of courage…you are not alone in this path

Dawn on

My heart breaks for those who lose their babies this way. You’ve felt flutters and bond and dream of who the little one will be. I’m days away from having my third and I just can’t imagine how I would pick up the pieces if something happened. So glad she’s supported and loved so much by her husband. Didn’t think they’d make it, but it looks like they’ll get their happy ending and I hope she has her rainbow baby sooner than later.

theunluckiestluckygirl on

I lost my son at 41 weeks in March of this year. I am
Now almost 4 months pregnant with his sibling and due with our rainbow baby a few weeks before my sons would be first birthday. Words can not express how healing it is to have been given this second chance at a new life. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. I believe a rainbow is waiting for you in the foreseeable future.

Susie Erfurth on

Jamie,I get it. I really do. We lost our baby girl at 34 weeks a little over 12 years ago. We now have an 11 year old boy and a 7 year old girl.

I felt, as you do, that my only coping mechanism was to become pregnant again. It will be difficult, and you’ll be a little crazy for a while, but that really was the best medicine for me. With the right support, you’ve got this.

Esme on

It is a very very special thing to have a partner who can share unspeakable grief with you, or just let you experience it with their support. Johnathan is loved. I hope their Rainbow Baby is on its way very shortly 🙂

sally on

we lost our first baby, a boy, at 26 weeks back in 2010. it was heartbreaking. we have 3 rainbow babies now, but he still holds a place in my heart.

mbk223 on

Love and prayers to this sweet family. I suffered a miscarriage 10 weeks into my first pregnancy after struggling to get pregnant. The next month I ended up getting pregnant with my sweet Rainbow baby. We were shocked. He’s now 1 1/2 and the light of our lives. Pregnancy after loss is scary and emotional but 100% worth it.