Courtney Stodden Pens Letter to the Baby She Lost: ‘My Tears May Never Stop Falling’

07/28/2016 at 11:00 AM ET

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Courtney Stodden is continuing to be open about her grief over the loss of her unborn child — this time addressing the baby she lost directly.

“My precious Angel,” begins a letter Stodden, who miscarried at around 13 weeks earlier in July, posted to Instagram late Wednesday evening.

“I never had a chance to hold your tiny hand. Never will I get to kiss your little warm feet. Never will I have the fortune to look into your precious eyes.”

The note by Stodden, who broke the news she and husband of five years Doug Hutchison were expecting a baby in May, also included wishes she had for her child.

“I hope that you know I wanted to give you life … a beautiful life — and desired so much to watch you grow into an incredible human being,” the model and reality star, 21, continues.

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❤️my heart is broken but I love you angel

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“My heart is broken but I love you angel,” the caption of the note image reads.

She continues, “I know that you’re my guardian angel. You’ll forever look over me. My tears may never stop falling like drops of rain whenever I think of losing you but I pray to God that you know how much I love you.”

Though the pregnancy was a surprise to Stodden and Hutchison, 56, she told Entertainment Tonight that she felt “happy about it but extremely overwhelmed.”

Stodden has been using Twitter and Instagram as an outlet since her miscarriage, receiving many supportive comments from her followers.

“Grieving … ” she tweeted July 19, following it up a few hours later with, “Feeling so empty.”

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Tieraney on

I know she is a trashy hot mess, but I do feel bad for her.

Natalie on

So sad, I’d like to say time heals all wounds but with a loss of a baby, sometimes your heart never heals completely. Stay strong!

Vanessa on

What a heartbreaking thing to go through, being nervous and excited all at the same time. Anticipating the changes that come with pregnancy and a new life, and then having it all go away and go back to life as it was before. It’s very sad.
And although are loved ones do look out for us, they cannot turn into angels, only saints.
But I am sure her little one is watching over her.

Vanessa on

*our loved ones

Lilly on

Nice that she could take a break from her grieving to speak to the press.

autumn on

SHE WAS NOT PREGNANT. She gained some weight to make it appear like she was more belly. She has exhausted all the normal stuff(married at 16, estranged at 18, public boob job, reunites with husband, renews vows, then makes her pregnancy announcement at 4 weeks, so she can get 3 months of attention instead of hiding it like most normal people. Then she gets paparazzi to film(while she is wearing FLATS INATEAD OF MILE HIGH PLATFORMS) and the dramatically fallS. Poof, THREE days later, she “miscarried”. And while her publicist says they’ll be mourning privately, she is making a mockery of herself to get attention.

Sorrow on

I can’t help but feel her sorrow, I know what she’s going through. She’s so young and maybe this experience will help her look at life differently so that one day she can truly be a great mom.

Vanessa on

Sorry, don’t believe for one minute she was pregnant.

Vanessa on

…and the photos of her “falling”….could they look anymore staged? I mean, come on, really? Who falls gracefully? If that were me and pregnant, I’d be in such a panic and be off to the hospital quick smart for a check up.

alison on

Feel bad for her, She is still very young only 21, she will be fine and have a healthy baby in the future.

marilyn on

So very sad…my heart goes out to her.

Tay Tannenbaum on

Bummer? I guess it’s back to more naked selfies in the backyard with her wannabe actor husband so they can continue their creepy daddy/daughter love fest. These two had no business ever having kids, especially when they are two giant children themselves.

Vanna on

I think she may have some mental problem, not very normal a young woman.

Alli on

I don’t believe, for a second, this woman was pregnant. Secondarily, she looks like she’s on drugs.

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