Kelly Killoren Bensimon on Her Struggles with Postpartum Depression: ‘I Was Petrified’
The celebrity moms who participate in PEOPLE’s Mom Talk series aren’t afraid to tackle some hard-hitting subjects, and the newest edition is no exception.
Killoren Bensimon — whose two daughters, Sea Louise and Thaddeus Ann, are now in their teens — also confesses she didn’t have the support she wishes she could’ve had.
“My ex-husband had just left to go traveling, and I was with this child by myself,” she says. “I was so young and none of my friends had kids, and I just … I was petrified.”
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She also adds that on top of the depression she felt after her first daughter’s birth, she was physically sick during her pregnancy, and that she tried a patch that doctors said would help balance out her hormones.
“That was the worst,” she says of her experience, adding, “Postpartum is really, really horrible.”
“I had no one to defer to except research material from, like, the ice age,” Killoren Bensimon says, noting that the internet makes it so much easier nowadays.
“When I was having a child, women were not really open to talking about the good and the bad things,” she adds. “You guys seem very open about ‘There’s good, bad and there’s ugly.’
“And a lot of women are like, ‘No no no, it’s perfect, it’s all great,’ ” Killoren Bensimon continues. “And I’m like, ‘I’m not great. I’m not feeling good.’ ”
— Jen Juneau