Christine Lakin’s Blog: Easing Into the Madness of Motherhood

04/15/2016 at 11:45 AM ET

Christine Lakin is a new mom!

Best known for her role as Al Lambert on the ’90s hit series Step by Step, the actress also has a recurring role as the voice of news anchor Joyce Kinney on Family Guy. She will next appear in Mother’s Day, hitting theaters April 29, and the independent film The Ledger.

Lakin, 37, and Brandon Breault were married in October 2014.

In November, the mom-to-be announced she was pregnant and expecting a baby girl.

The couple welcomed their first child, daughter Georgia James, on March 6.

Lakin can be found on Instagram and Twitter @yolakin.

Christine Lakin daughter Georgia blog
Courtesy Christine Lakin

I’ve been a mom for a whole five weeks now. So, I’m pretty much an expert. (I joke.)

People ask me how it’s going. How do I feel? The response changes daily, maybe hourly. For the most part, I feel pretty good. There’s nothing like looking in Georgia’s eyes as she stares up at me with this newfound look of wonder or smelling her little hands and kissing her plump cheeks.

Christine Lakin daughter Georgia blog
With my parents! – Courtesy Christine Lakin

And there’s also nothing quite like getting projectile spit up inside your mouth as you go in for a sweet cuddle. An occurrence both my husband and I have had the awesome pleasure of experiencing. Good times people, good times.

The fact of the matter is, it’s hard. Way harder than I thought it would be. And I read books! I watched multiple friends have kids and go through it. I felt like I waited until the timing was right in my life and really took stock of what a lifestyle change this would be … and man, I have to tell you, I got played.

Christine Lakin daughter Georgia blog
Courtesy Christine Lakin

This is by far, the most difficult job I’ve ever had. And I’ve navigated a career in the entertainment industry for 29 years without losing my marbles, which is no small feat.

All you moms out there are chuckling reading this, I’m sure. Because you know exactly the confusing mix of elation, exhaustion, frustration and joy I feel every day. Sometimes all at once.

I cry. I laugh. I worry. About whether she’s gained enough weight. About whether I’m making enough milk. I worry I’m doing a good enough job. Brandon and I talk way too much about poop. Not the sexiest convo.

Christine Lakin daughter Georgia blog
Courtesy Christine Lakin

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I watch a lot of Project Runway and Housewives while I breastfeed. I feel simultaneously guilty I’m not working and terrified of having to leave her eventually to go back to work. In all honesty, I’ve been trying to write this blog for three days. Just like the pile of laundry that I keep swearing I’m going to fold.

How did I go from being such a productive person who writes, acts, directs, narrates, and choreographs while finding the time to make dinner five nights a week and host theme parties on the weekends to wearing my PJs at 3 p.m. and realizing I still haven’t brushed my teeth?

Multi tasking. (And also, don't judge my eyebrows. Thanks)

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I think that’s the hardest shift. For anyone who previously devoted their life to their career, the shift to motherhood is truthfully, a bit shocking. As a person who’s a fairly adept multitasker, I guess I always thought that skill would apply and make things easier.

And in some ways it does. (I’m really good at eating with one hand now and have organized her closet so well it looks like Mabel’s Labels exploded in there.)

But in other ways, it has just provided more chaos and frustration for me when I set goals that can’t be accomplished. And here came my a-ha moment (thank you Oprah) — my life is not my own anymore. It’s hers.

I hope #codybear doesn't think he's next… 😂 #normalizebreastfeeding

A photo posted by Christine Lakin (@yolakin) on

On the hard days, I tell myself it gets easier. This stage will pass. And on the good days, I remind myself this stage is fleeting. She will never be this tiny again. So shut up, Lakin. Put your Type-A personality on the back burner and sit back and and enjoy it.

No, it’s not perfect. It’s confusing and messy and the laundry is never done. Yes, I have hummus in my hair and have leaked through my shirt. But who cares? Smell her head. Tickle her feet. Take yet another picture. And then get spit up on and repeat the whole process. Because it’s awesome and the reward of that first smile is better than anything I could have imagined before I became a mom.

Your career is never gonna love you back like your kid. And that stupid phrase “having it all” … well, maybe we should talk about “having it good” instead.

Christine Lakin daughter Georgia blog
Courtesy Christine Lakin

These are the “trenches” so to speak. I haven’t seen this many sunrises since college. I pump my fists in excitement at 2 a.m. because she’s slept four whole hours in a row. (On that subject, how did I ever complain before about getting “a bad night’s sleep?” Six hours would feel like a dream these days.)

And why did no one tell me newborns are so NOISY? She’s like a mini Chewbacca in her bassinet, grunting and groaning through the night.

But I wouldn’t trade it for the world. The role of mom is definitely hardest earned, and so far, the best one I’ve scored. Now excuse me, I’m going to get some crackers to dip in my bangs.

— Christine Lakin

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wil on

This is not meant as a criticism, but I never understand new mothers who say they can’t find the time to get dressed and brush their teeth, etc. I’ve never had this problem. My son is 4 months old, and I have never once had a problem taking care of basic grooming/hygiene. Babies sleep a lot.

Lotte on

@Wil: well maybe your baby slept a lot. Mine, though mastering 6 consecutive hours at night by 9 weeks, didn’t do more than 30-45 minutes during the day.

Since my milk supply was low I sat down to pump as soon as she closed her eyes, yet with her waking around the same time I was done (and sometimes before) I rarely got to experience those “take your rest while your baby’s napping” moments. So yeah, there were days I “forgot” to get dressed. Or had to shower in under 3 minutes (wait…did I actually rinse that shampoo from my hair?).

Point is: every family’s different. When it comes to baby raising, criticising fellow moms should be a no-no. Unless they’re messing up on a Child Services level, which doesn’t seem to be the case here.

Jane on

@ Wil….Not all babies sleep a lot. Every baby is different. My baby would sleep for only 5 hours a day without being held. I can relate to Christine.

Alicia on

Loved this🙂 I can relate to all of these things! Congrats on your beautiful girl! Enjoy every moment (even the exhausting ones)😉 because it flies by FAST!

Alicia on

And I agree, every baby is different. My 1st child was an EXPERT sleeper. She was so easy! 2nd child, every day is a struggle.

Nighttime and naps, shew, so exhausting. I am a sleep deprived zombie these days :O Add in that she is high maintenance and would scream and scream if she wasn’t being held… Even showers are not an easy task.

Karen on

Congrats Christine! Mother of three here and I absolutely can relate. Motherhood turns your life upside down.

My favorite part of this article is:
“It’s confusing and messy and the laundry is never done. Yes, I have hummus in my hair and have leaked through my shirt. But who cares? Smell her head. Tickle her feet. Take yet another picture. And then get spit up on and repeat the whole process. Because it’s awesome and the reward of that first smile is better than anything I could have imagined before I became a mom.”

Yolander on

I can relate to your post like when my son was little, however those days go fast, you will have an unforgettable memory out of it.

Olly on

Doest anyone knows what baby carrier is the one in the picture?

Luckybaby on

Not all babies sleep a lot. My daughter never slept. She was colicky 24/7. We were walking zombies.

Grl23 on

@Olly: The straps look like an ERGObaby. Expensive but worth every penny. They are very comfortable, even as the baby grows. If you don’t want to pay full price, don’t forget to check baby consignment stores. You can often find them practically new for half off.

Vee on

As the old saying goes “the days are long but the years are short.” So true.

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