Kim Kardashian West, ‘Pumping and Delirious,’ Blogs About How ‘Hard’ It Is Having 2 Kids: ‘I Get No Sleep’

02/10/2016 at 11:55 AM ET


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Kim Kardashian West is an open book when it comes to pregnancy and parenting.

The Keeping Up with the Kardashians star took to her website and app Wednesday to share a no-holds barred post about how her life has changed now that she has two kids. (Kardashian, 35, welcomed her son Saint on Dec. 5, and her daughter North is 2½.)

“I’m up at 4 a.m., pumping and delirious, hiding in my daughter’s closet because if she sees I snuck out of her bed, she will start to cry AND I think she gave me a cold so I figure no better time to write a #StraightUp than now!” Kardashian West wrote. (Could this have been written during her “long night” playing dress-up with Northie a couple of weeks ago?)

“My mom [Kris Jenner] would always say, about having kids: ‘One is like one, and two are like twenty.’ I never really understood that until now,” Kardashian West continued. “It seemed like every time Kanye [West] and I would go out, we would see couples — or really anybody that had kids — and everyone would say, ‘Wait until you have two.’ Like it’s the end of the world! I remember Kanye and I would be like, ‘WTF are they talking about? Will our lives be the same? Are we going to be OK?!’ ”

But the star says things certainly changed when she took on double mommy-duty.

“Of course, I expected it to be different but, wow, it really is so hard!” she admitted. “When I had North, all I did was feed and sleep. This time around, I get no sleep.”

“Every waking second that I’m not with the baby, I’m with North,” she added. “I actually think the harder parts aren’t with the newborn but with the toddler! I feel like I go into overdrive to give my daughter attention and make her feel loved.” (Indeed, the mom of two has started including her daughter when she breastfeeds Saint so North doesn’t feel left out.)

Luckily, Kardashian West’s hubby is there to support her: “Kanye is super helpful, taking North out to dinners (just them!),” and North looks up to her bestie and cousin Penelope, 3½, who is Kourtney Kardashian‘s daughter.

“[Penelope] also has a baby brother so she gives North the best advice,” Kardashian West said. “I have the cutest video of P giving North a heart to heart about being a good big sister.”

At the end of the day, despite the challenges, Kardashian West understands it’s all part of the parenting process.

“I’ve attempted to work a few times or enjoy our Christmas Eve party, but it’s definitely been challenging feeding the baby in between getting myself ready and getting my daughter ready,” she said. “Being late and running behind gives me anxiety, but I know we will soon get into the perfect groove and just figure it out. My mom did, my sister did — and I will, too.”

Aurelie Corinthios

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Rdh80 on

Did somebody tell her motherhood is easy? I’m baffled by this. On the bright side it doesn’t last forever. My youngest is now 4 and I’m wondering how it all went so quickly!?!?

rubyovertherainbow* on

All this woman does is complain about all the misery her pregnancy and these children have brought to her bedazzled life.

Diana on

It’s always rough when you first add a new one to the mix:) She’ll adjust just fine. She seems to be very hands on right now but she has the added luxury of lots of $$$ that most moms don’t have. At some point she can easily hire a nanny, she has maids, cooks and a husband that can whisk the 2 of you off to Paris for the weekend when you’re about to snap. Not saying it’s any less difficult (especially mentally or emotionally) for her but it’s still different than for most moms..

rowansmom711 on

I have an 11 yo son and had a very difficult time adjusting to just one baby. He was a very high demand baby, had some health issues, didn’t sleep. Subsequently, I had major issues with post partum anxiety and depression. Now, he is wonderful and I enjoy being his mother so much. It’s hard to believe it when you’re in the trenches, but things do get easier! However, I knew I never wanted a second child. I could not handle starting back at square one again.

Jane on

And who forced her to have a second child, especially one so close in age to the first. She made a choice and still continues to want pity for doing what so many other women do and without the resources she has. She should just be grateful to have to healthy children and leave it at that.

Lynda on

Kim!!! Good Lord Stop Crying about this!!! It’s all you do!!! Grow Up!

really on

She’s so full of crap, like she doesn’t have 5 nannies to take care of them……she’s a fat lazy slob. Trust me, she’s eating and sleeping just fine.

Rola on

She sounds like she is the only woman to have two kids

LEE on

PEOPLE Magazine, why do you continue to publish these gawd awful pity party articles from Kim Kardashian! She’s so pathetic!

prepboy72 on

Why do we care! She is not the first to have children and definitely not the last. There are so many strong (single) moms out there that are braver and stronger than she will ever be!

Munch on

Really! Most people do not have multiple nannies, live with their mother for help, cleaning lady, driver, chef, gardener, etc. Two kids are a blessing, 10 are a RIOT!! Stop the whining; she makes me sick to my stomach.

Debz on

Maybe she should just shut the HELL up! What did you expect your life to be like when you had kids? I mean, REALLY? When you make children, THEY become your world, what you had before has to take a back seat to your kids! WTF?!?!?! If you couldn’t handle ONE child, why have another one? All you do is COMPLAIN!!! Please STOP and please, please, please, JUST GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous on

Very selfish, it’s not about you anymore princess it’s about your children, grown up…

CC on

She is sickening. Suck it up like the rest of us who DON’T live with our mothers or have help! If she’d stay off social media she might have time to be a REAL mother.

Guest on

Oh wah 😭 Grow up you twit

sandy on

why WHINE to the world? some stuff should be kept to yourself. no one wants to hear this.

sultex on

Really? You want sympathy from me and who else?
I am a single mother of 3! I work 40+ hours a week and am just making ends meet- barely. Ex has stopped sending his payments. I guess he’s found a new playmate and has no time for the kids either. I have nothing- but I do have 3 beautiful kids I will work my A$$ off to provide for. It’s about them.
I would never whine though because I know others have it worse.
I live in a 3 bedroom apartment. You live in a mansion & are rich.
KIM think before you whine!

Trish on

What’s wrong with her face?

Liz on

I don’t like her, but people are harsh here. Children are not always a blessing to everyone, some don’t want them at all because they consume so much of ones life. But she did make a decision of havering not one, but two. I don’t know what she expected. That’s why I always say-not eveyinone is meant to be a parent and guess what? That’s OK!. I have one child and had zero plans of ever adding a second one. It’s ok to be selfish if it means being realistic.

sally on

Liz- you should never of had any! Scary!!!

Niko on

Kim Kartrashian is even faker and more annoying than Gwyneth Paltrow. Does this narcissist ever stop whining? STFU jeez….

Liz on

@sally Why pass judgment? That’s exactly what I was talking about. Moms judging others. Everyone is not the same, It should be encouraged that some in particular new moms get all the help possible. It takes a village to raise a child, and this stigma of covering everything up and pretending like raising a child is rainbows and unicorns stops. It’s hard work, and obviously not everyone is cut out for it. Kim of course loves her kids but she’s obviously overwhelmed. Why can’t she express that? At least she’s being honest. happy mom=happy baby I always say. I’m sure she’s taking care of herself and of course having nannies helps. But like is I said it’s perfectly normal to feel overwhelmed, never be afraid to seek help wether it be with a family member or friend. As for my child, she’s off to college next year, so that’s a whole other ballgame haha the point is not to judge until you have walked in someone else’s shoes. Good luck ladies. Support each other.

Mamaofgirls on

I usually think she’s kind of whiny, and I don’t know that it’s necessary to talk about it all the time, but we said the same thing- going from one to two was like one to twenty. It’ll even out, but that first six months is pretty exhausting.

robinepowell on

Why is she sleeping in North’s bed? Her daughter should be sleeping in her bed by herself.
If North cries, let her.

nikki on

why in the hell did she have another kid..she should be ashamed of herself complain how hard it is..when there are women out there that cannot have kids…all you want is attention kim….you had sex, you knew what you were doing..you make me sick…stop whinning

Anonymous on

She is whining too much!

Mattt on

She can’t win?/she would still be judged if she decided to hire nannies and chose the simple life.
Two makes a difference and she is being real and honest. Just because someone has millions of dollars doesn’t make her any less human or give the world permission to share her.
Don’t click or read the articles. I can relate to this having a 4 months old and 3 year old and her experience is bang on! I read this during my MOTN pumping and it helped to know another mom is going through the same.

Joanne on

Pump impinge all the tim? Why? Is it because your never with your kids? I had 4 kids. 2 back to back. And breast fed one. Yes it’s hard. But. I wasn’t pumping all the time. Hey, kimmie? Some advice? When you breast feed, try including north. Try reading her a book. Try telling her a story. Try singing to her. How about when he sleeps play with her. Craft with her. Instead of getting cornrows and goin out. Try actually spending time with her.

Van on

You’re not the only person having 2 kids, they’re millions moms doing the same as you.

Mandi on

Shut Up!

Dawn on

WOW!!!! I don’t know anyone else with more than one kid! Thank goodness Kim can tell us how hard it is! Phew!

Anonymous on

I guess this is where folks come to unload their hatred! Kim sounds like a completely normal and honest new mother of two. She doesn’t come off as spoiled or ungrateful for her kids at all. If anyone else said thie things she did–which in fact, other celebs have– we’d all be wishing her well and sharing advice.

Anonymous on

Poor Kimmy. Be grateful you have two healthy children and the means to able to stay home with them. Try daaling with all that and still have to go to work all day.

Zox on

She needs to shut up.

Donna on

Maybe now you’ll have empathy for Courtney…..

Anonymouz on

Complaining too much!

Not A Fan on

Oh come on……This is absolutely another ploy for attention. Really? Kim has no nannies ? What HELLL is she doing sleeping with North ? If this was someone who wasn’t famous, the CPS would be knocking on their door ! Kim can’t think for herself…Kourt slept with Mason until she had Penelope….which is B.S. Do you really think that I believe that Kim is still nursing ? Sure….( I don’t ) That requires a lot of time, and if you aren’t eating correctly your milk dries up….and with Kim so obsessed with her “beautiful ” image…..she has been dieting probably since the week no# 2 was born…
Too bad Kimmode doesnt’ know how to tell the truth……LIAR !

gene on

you get no sleep cause you a medaia whore you care too damn much about what ppl think, just like your idiot husband….did i step out of bounds? like kanye the wuss will do a damn thing…broke as a joke, enjoy your divorce

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