Jessica Alba tries her best to be a responsible parent, but she admits there was a moment where she questioned her skills.
“I found my daughter Honor sitting in her crib, eating these tiny beads from the inside of her diaper,” the actress, 31, tells SELF in its September issue. “They were all over her face. It was a moment of terror.”
Alba says luckily her little girl, now 4, was okay, but she still “felt guilty afterward,” explaining, “I worried that I’d poisoned my daughter.”
The incident became one of the defining moments that led the actress to found The Honest Company – a line of eco-friendly baby products — with Christopher Gavigan.
“It took me three-and-a-half years to launch. When things didn’t go smoothly, I’d get really upset. I worried that I was wasting so much time and money. It really does feel like this is my third baby,” she admits.
“It’s a deep passion of mine and I spend all my time at the office. I think it’s a nice balance to Hollywood because this is something that I could actually control. I could see [it through] from the beginning to the end and there’s something really wonderful and fulfilling about that. Especially when it was so hard to get it going for so long. For it to actually be here and exist is pretty cool.”
The mother of Honor and little sister Haven, 1, considers herself much more nurturing since becoming a parent.
“Before I got pregnant, it was all about my career,” Alba says. “Afterward, I slowed down and realized that life is living, connecting and sharing.”