Edie Falco: Realization of Motherhood Was 'Huge'

06/06/2009 at 07:00 PM ET
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When actress Edie Falco was cast on The Sopranos, the show led to the fulfillment of career goals, but it wasn’t until she become mother to Anderson, 4 ½, and Macy, 16 months, that her life’s ambition came true. Looking to adoption after deciding to pursue motherhood, Edie welcomed Anderson as an infant. It was an emotionally difficult experience, Edie admits.

“You can’t believe you’re being left alone with this infant. ‘Don’t they know I don’t know what I’m doing?’ Losing sleep. Up to that point it had been all about me, ‘Oh, I’ll get another massage.’ And all of a sudden there’s this screaming thing in your house and that’s what your whole life is. That was huge,” explains Edie. Motherhood “made me realize that I can show up for the responsibility.”

“In the beginning I thought, ‘I don’t know what the hell I’ve done. And there’s no way I can follow through on this.’ Meanwhile I got up every morning and I changed his diaper and I fed him his bottle, took him to his doctor’s appointments. I did all the stuff day-by-day gritting my teeth, I guess thinking this is what you do until it turns into a life that grows roots in the ground and becomes this whole living thing.”

A year into raising Anderson, Edie “realized he needs a sibling and I want another kid. I started the process again. And you start with the diapers and formula and you’re back at it again,” she laughs. Motherhood has brought Edie everything she felt she needed and it’s an experience that she describes simply as “huge.”

“The first time realizing I’m actually a mother is just huge. Even when I say it now all these years later it still comes over me like a wave. Huge!”

Edie, 45, can next be seen in Showtime’s Nurse Jackie, premiering Monday night at 10:30 p.m.

Source: The Modesto Bee

— Angela

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Ashley on

We have been hearing about her a lot lately!!

p.s LOVE the name Anderson

donna on

LOVE HER! SHE IS A GREAT MOM..WISH THE SOPRANOS WAS STILL ON

Gigohead on

I like that she doesn’t peddle her kids for photos and keeps them away from the limelight. That means she respects her kid’s privacy. She doesn’t need to sell their images to convince people to watch her show. She gets viewers based on her own merits.

Alice on

I feel so good reading this because that was how I felt too. Being a new Mum is soooo overwhelming and sometimes at first it can just feel like you’re feeding, changing etc. Most Mums won’t admit to it I think so I felt concerned that I felt like it. It’s so refreshing to hear someone so openly honest about it.

I can really relate to those feelings of ‘what have I done!’ but before long I was asking – ‘why didn’t I do this sooner!’🙂

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